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nope, meg - i never got hot and sweaty with anyone on your bed. at least, not that i remember. i don't think i've ever hooked up on any of my friend's beds. .
anyways, she walked in on us SLEEPING at 8am on jackie's bed. we decided to sleep there so as not to disturb nushie poo :) by the way, nush - i don't think i thanked you for waking me up and making me go to the buddy training thing. i definitely owe you one. you're the bestest :) i figured you must have picked up on something - i know you're not blind / dumb, but i felt bad that i didn't get to tell you about it outright.
no, we didn't hook up again on saturday. we started watching a movie in jackie's room and then fell asleep (again, we slept there so as not to wake up anusha).
yea, i don't know what's going on with the 18 year old he was dating. he wanted to come over so we could talk tonight, but i have training again till like 10 or so, so i think we might just talk tomorrow. i didn't do shit all weekend - i need to put away laundry and clean the kitchen/living room/bathroom. . .
jackie thinks it's good if we start dating. i feel retarded casue he's one of my closest friends, i've known him forever, and i don't know what i want. he's super sweet and nice and i know he'd treat me awesome. but i know him so well that i know there are things about him that drive me nuts. he's really jealous - like, if he just sees a guy talking to me he's like, "oh, that guy was hitting on you." and i hate that. i can't stand jealousy. and i don't know - he just knows how to push my buttons and how to piss me off. for real, if we started dating, i don't know how long that would last - and he's such a good friend to me, i wouldn't want to ruin that. i think i'm also just terrified of commitment, and i definitely wouldn't want to hurt him. and i love going out and partying with different guys and stuff, and i know he'd just be like, "so, who's jordan and why's he inviting you to these parties."
i don't know, maybe these are all just stupid excuses that i'm coming up with now, but i honestly don't know what i want right now. and i was too chicken shit to bring any of this up all weekend. oh well, i guess we'll talk today or tomorrow and figure all this shit out.
anyways, she walked in on us SLEEPING at 8am on jackie's bed. we decided to sleep there so as not to disturb nushie poo :) by the way, nush - i don't think i thanked you for waking me up and making me go to the buddy training thing. i definitely owe you one. you're the bestest :) i figured you must have picked up on something - i know you're not blind / dumb, but i felt bad that i didn't get to tell you about it outright.
no, we didn't hook up again on saturday. we started watching a movie in jackie's room and then fell asleep (again, we slept there so as not to wake up anusha).
yea, i don't know what's going on with the 18 year old he was dating. he wanted to come over so we could talk tonight, but i have training again till like 10 or so, so i think we might just talk tomorrow. i didn't do shit all weekend - i need to put away laundry and clean the kitchen/living room/bathroom. . .
jackie thinks it's good if we start dating. i feel retarded casue he's one of my closest friends, i've known him forever, and i don't know what i want. he's super sweet and nice and i know he'd treat me awesome. but i know him so well that i know there are things about him that drive me nuts. he's really jealous - like, if he just sees a guy talking to me he's like, "oh, that guy was hitting on you." and i hate that. i can't stand jealousy. and i don't know - he just knows how to push my buttons and how to piss me off. for real, if we started dating, i don't know how long that would last - and he's such a good friend to me, i wouldn't want to ruin that. i think i'm also just terrified of commitment, and i definitely wouldn't want to hurt him. and i love going out and partying with different guys and stuff, and i know he'd just be like, "so, who's jordan and why's he inviting you to these parties."
i don't know, maybe these are all just stupid excuses that i'm coming up with now, but i honestly don't know what i want right now. and i was too chicken shit to bring any of this up all weekend. oh well, i guess we'll talk today or tomorrow and figure all this shit out.
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