11.22.2004

you are not alone :)

i def feel that way too...that i know itd be better to break up with dev at least for a while, but it scares the hell out of me cause im comfortable, and when im not upset, im really happy! that sounds horrible but its true...i mean when i reread my last blog he sounds great - stalkerish and crazy but great...i just need to find my happy medium with him....

ok im chicken shit, and on my way to his apt :) it made me super sad to realize i wasnt goign to see him for over a week, so i called and im gonna stop by and hang out till he leaves for the airport at 7..then ill come home and study...

jules - i told dev about it and he was all fired up for peter :) and i said you guys were going to talk and he just groaned...i think rupas advice for no titles is a good plan! just make sure that the no titles thing also means no jealousy cause with peter im not so sure of that...and you dont want this to be a jackie/brian thing either..the no title thing there is ridiculous....