1.06.2005

hmmm....

i have mixed opinions about this.. my honest gut reaction (which i hope you want!) is that this is a bad idea.. where you putting the relationship and him above you.. but in the end, we always have to do what we think is right.. not what we think we are "supposed" to do.

but, nush, if you stay with him, then make sure this time is different. you don't deserve to have to sit there and defend all of your habits and idiosyncracies.. i think i told him this that drunken night.. but it seems like he wants to argue the surface stuff.. like "why do i have to call everyday" instead of "why doesn't he want to call everyday". if you feel like you aren't actually talking about the real issues when you are working stuff out and you are instead talking about the surface stuff, then i would walk away.

i hope me being frank is ok.. and it doesn't sound like a lecture.

i know you know better than anyone what is right for you.. but i think you are really giving in this relationship.. and someone needs to remind you that the first person to take care of is yourself!!! :)