4.18.2005

i had the worst weekend....

all day saturday i was just tired from friday night so i didnt get any work done and was just in a blah mood all day...then the worst night i have had in a long time. the prelude to sat night, was friday night i stayed at satyans and evy slept in my bed...

sat, dev came over and we just hung out watched satc and just talked. it was nice. he bought julie flowers and a card for her bday and got all dressed up to go out to dinner with us. i didnt want to go to dinner cause i was just too tired to keep my eyes open, i wish i had just stayed home. we got to dinner - j+J+evy+joe+me+dev - first joe gives dev this really weird/shocked look of i think i know you but i dont so ill introduce myself...dev was like hi joe its dev...awkward moment number 1. then we are at dinner jackie is telling a story of the guy she works with who stayed in her room and how it was so awkward so evy should have just slept there, somehow evy just blurted out well anusha wasnt in her bed so i stayed there...i felt miserable. sure it would suck for dev to ever find out but then all of us were embarrassed/awkward/didnt know what to say so sort of laughed, drank wine tried to change the subject...the walk home was horrible. i told him that i stayed at satyans and totally downplayed it but told him that we have been seeing eachother a lot...

urgh. he stayed over till 3 talking/crying/etc...then of course if the timing couldnt have been more perfect, my period kicks in so i didnt sleep all night cause of cramps...

sunday morning, i get up, showered, found like 3 more spots of no hair on my head :( my parents decided to come up cause my dad wanted to see my hair. apparently now it isnt stress related and it is genetic. i have to go home once a month to get injections in all (4 or 5 now) spots that this is happening in so that it doesnt keep spreading. i have to do this for 6 months. last night satyan and i played firsbee in the park, went out to a nice dinner, then he came over to watch DH with us. but i was so weird the whole day. im just in a lousy mood. i had that i totally embarrased dev in front of everyone and made him feel like shit in front of everyone.