update on my drama
chris came over and asked if i could talk to him just now. we talked for like 30 min. he basically was like i had no negative intentions, i just didnt want to diss dev by assuming since im older i should pay for him. i told him that maybe it would be better if an option were presented instead of hey split the bill with us - if he had said you can split with us or itemize and pay what you like...he agreed and he was like i dont think there is one solution to this, its not like we were trying to make you and dev pay. he was like ive always paid for girls in a social setting - since i was 20, ill do it when im 40 and ill do it when im 60. (obviosuly, he is pretty sleezy). anyway there is no real solution and you cant retroactively fix something. he brought up the xmas party - and he was like i had to foot a 500 bill that night cause noone paid. and iw as like you know what you made me pay 20 even though id idnt have a single drink. he shrugged his shoulders and was like but at the end of the night i paid 500 and i didnt drink that much.
but like i said you cant fix these things anymore. i have to learn to accept peoples appologies when there was a mistake or a bad situation that no one knows what the outcome should have been etc etc...right??
and on to drama #2. Dev. He is reallly trying to be my friend and I know it is eating him up inside. He bought me the nice sunglasses yesterday for my bday. and we came home, i studied, we ate dinner, and just had a good time. but then he got into this i love you lalala stuff. and i feel really bad for him, i just cant be his friend if all this stuff comes up almost every time we hang out. and then i feel worse cause i want to just be his friend, i just cant listen to the same stuff over and over again with him, esp not at 1130 at night. i made him leave but then had a nightmare that he got hurt and woke up terrfiied at 1230, i called him and he was crying sitting on the stoop of his apt :( i used to think a part of me wanted to give it/him another chance, but i really dont. not now. i want to see what dating someone else would be like. i need to do that. and i need to do all that after 3 weeks when the test is over.
jules i agree with the bday plan of telling EVERYONE to not say anything about any stories invovling me, boys, not being home, not studying, etc, etc!! I know its hard since there are so many stories to talk about :) but we have to try really hard. im going to invite steve and drew my coworkers, so hopefully they can entertain dev a lot, although i think drew will be more interested in all my hot friends :) anyway i def want dev to be there - he has gone through a lot of planning and thinking about my bday, presents, clothes, stuff like that - i cant leave him out on the most important day of the year for me...i just need to not talk about my bday at all to satyan anymore and maybe he will forget about it (which is highly unlikely.....but maybe i just need to tell him he cant come out on friday...)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
but like i said you cant fix these things anymore. i have to learn to accept peoples appologies when there was a mistake or a bad situation that no one knows what the outcome should have been etc etc...right??
and on to drama #2. Dev. He is reallly trying to be my friend and I know it is eating him up inside. He bought me the nice sunglasses yesterday for my bday. and we came home, i studied, we ate dinner, and just had a good time. but then he got into this i love you lalala stuff. and i feel really bad for him, i just cant be his friend if all this stuff comes up almost every time we hang out. and then i feel worse cause i want to just be his friend, i just cant listen to the same stuff over and over again with him, esp not at 1130 at night. i made him leave but then had a nightmare that he got hurt and woke up terrfiied at 1230, i called him and he was crying sitting on the stoop of his apt :( i used to think a part of me wanted to give it/him another chance, but i really dont. not now. i want to see what dating someone else would be like. i need to do that. and i need to do all that after 3 weeks when the test is over.
jules i agree with the bday plan of telling EVERYONE to not say anything about any stories invovling me, boys, not being home, not studying, etc, etc!! I know its hard since there are so many stories to talk about :) but we have to try really hard. im going to invite steve and drew my coworkers, so hopefully they can entertain dev a lot, although i think drew will be more interested in all my hot friends :) anyway i def want dev to be there - he has gone through a lot of planning and thinking about my bday, presents, clothes, stuff like that - i cant leave him out on the most important day of the year for me...i just need to not talk about my bday at all to satyan anymore and maybe he will forget about it (which is highly unlikely.....but maybe i just need to tell him he cant come out on friday...)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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