1million dollars and frustration

def no. all the family i know is here. the language i know is here. the culture i know is here. i would love to live in europe for a while - but there would need to be enough money to 1. start a new life w/a place to live and time to settle in to the new life before finding a job and 2. a nest egg to be able to fly my family over to see me whenever i want. i guess i could always move to canada . . .

as for easter and edgar - i'm just going to skip easter and i am going to my grandparent's house. my grandparent's probably won't even know i'm there - my mom will tell cindy and that will be enough. as for the continuing discussion as to the stress on our relationship caused by the living situation - i always think about pointing out to him that he's not exactly helping the situation and that nothing is really my fault . . . but generally his funk goes away after a day and its not worth an argument just to vent my frustration on him. i think i'm just going to be a much more relaxed person in july . . . which is really not that far away. plus - june is going to fly by because i'm going to spend my time looking for a new apartment, in nyc, and packing to move to the new apartment. so - its just april and may that i need to drag through. and the latter half of april will be easy because we will be doing another challenge study so i'll have lots of work every other day and get to have lots of random days off. so - really, just the next two weeks and then the month of may :) (i give myself a lot of pep talks - this is all very practiced for me)