5.11.2005

what a great question: ID GO OUT AND BUY MY ROOMMATES SO MANY DRINKS THAT WE WERE ALL WASTED

are you kidding?? if i had a written note telling me that no matter what i wouldnt fail this test id prob offer to buy chris drinks!! :)

i know the question was probably meant to be more broad than such a narrow view of the world, but too bad - my view of the world is pretty narrow right now..this is the time of my studying where i dont like it cause everything else seems more fun and im just memorizing/learning. up until this point i liked all the studying...

on coworkers: he didnt say no cause he didnt want to look bad or make me look bad. in retrospect, he should have said no, and i wouldnt have cared but he didnt know that...i actually am better - im not going to talk to larry about it, i am still thinking about another job - not cause of this but because of the environment here - it is a revolving door, seems like its my turn pretty soon...

on dev - julie i agree, but im really not leading him on - i tell him all the time that i dont want to date him and i tell him that in 3 months i may not want to date him either- he says he wants to be my friend, which i dont understnad and clearly he isnt able to do that anyway since he gets so sad when he has to leave...

and megan - i dont think he has lost individuality or self respect - i think he just doesnt want to lose me - i dont think there is a loss of self respect because of how he is acting. i know a lot of girls cant handle crying, but i cry so much im used to it - and sure a lot of times its "too much" or i dont know what to say but i dont hold that against him...i kind of like that he is open with me. this isnt like the mike comment - its more drastic than that - he doesnt want to date anyone else he doesnt want to meet anyone else. i cant figure out for the life of me what i do to these guys but i keep thinking about this, mike, baba...