4.04.2005

blogger hates all of us i think...

i dont think its so much a rebound thing. i admit that if it were i probably wouldnt notice it in the first place and if i did i may even try to deny it, that being said, i dont think it is :)

i think for a rebound type situation i would just want lots and lots of hooking up and none of the other stuff. and there is def a lot of the other stuff here - talks about where this is going (which has only happened once, pretty serious conversation, but it ended with him telling me no more talks about it for another few months which im happy about), spending too much time together when i dont really have that kind of time to spend, and cancelling dates with other people whose company i actualyl enjoy just so i can meet some of his friends...

but then i go and do masochistic things like have lunch with dev today. it would have been our 22 month anniversary today (which after 12 i stopped "counting" I just think of every 4th of the month...) anyway he is leaving for atl tonight and we were both free...it was really fun..he has realyl become cute since we broke up. it def cause i expect less and dont talk to him as much so when i do its just fun without all the baggage...but i still miss him. he gave me a hug before we left and he was like im glad im still in your life, its really hard for me but just being in your company makes me happy. i responded with even if we are just friends? and he was like obviously thats not what i want but if its all im going to get then yes...

:-/